20年

Blood is on the Square
Phillip Morgan

A song was heard in China
in the city of Beijing.
In the spring of 1989
you could hear the people sing.
And it was the song of freedom
that was ringing in the square,
the world could feel the passion of
the people gathered there.
Oh children, blood is on the square.

For many nights and many days,
waiting in the square.
"To build a better nation"
was the song that echoed there.
"For we are China's children,
we love our native land,
for brotherhood and freedom
we are joining hand in hand."
Oh children, blood is on the square.

Then came the People's army
with trucks and tanks and guns.
The government was frightened
of their daughters and their sons.
But in the square was courage and
a vision true and fair,
the Army of the People would not harm
the young ones there.
Oh children, blood is on the square.

On June the 3rd in China,
in the spring of 89,
an order came from high above
and passed on down the line.
The soldiers opened fire,
young people bled and died,
the blood of thousands on the square
that lies can never hide.
Oh children, blood is on the square.

For four more days of fury
the people faced the guns.
How many thousands slaughtered
when their grisly work was done?
they quickly burned the bodies
to hide their coward's shame,
but blood is thick upon their hands and
darkness on their names.
Oh children, blood is on the square.

There are tears that flow in China
for her children that are gone.
There is fear and there is hiding,
for the killing still goes on.
And the iron hand of terror
can buy silence for today,
but the blood that lies upon
the square cannot be washed away.
Oh children, blood is on the square.

因為是20年的關係，今年的紀念活動開始得特別早，萍果天天做專題，很多朋友不停send youtube 呀訪問呀咁，加上港大陳生幫手做廣告（講真，其實可以頒個「最佳sale屎」獎比佢），阿曾生又無端端死出黎話佢代表香港人（噢，我唔記得左阿曾生曾經自喻為孤獨的推銷員添，好咯，阿曾生今次唔孤獨啦，有新晉陳同學陪著佢走～），我猜今年的集會人數應該有機會過八萬。

好難過，六四是我的死穴，真的不能碰，本來大家轉發關於六四的電郵我都不想看的，但是又覺得很不應該似的（不是政治不正確的不應該，不是擔心被讉責遺忘，而是我好像不應該拒絕難過），最終還是全部都看了。

sz的事仍未完結，很多手尾，很煩很煩，煩得我連說話的力氣也沒有，尖叫也叫不出，也沒有眼淚，除了必要的運作外，這兩個月我都無法正常工作，很辛苦。我想我已經開始接近崩潰的狀態（不過識得話自己就快崩潰既人應該都唔會崩潰卦），希望20年前的力量，能支撐我過這一關，願我能有更大的勇氣和力量，繼續悄悄地澆水。

星期六本來是學聯舉辦的學界6420週年遊行，但因為要出差，不能去了，有點可惜，不過please count me in。

（p.s. 上個星期在大陸，除左youtube開晒名被禁之外，yahoo hk、萍果、blogspot 等都開唔到了。今年64前有512川震，所以互聯網封鎖提早了，不過，你有張良計，網民有過牆梯，誰怕誰呀）